Pondering..

Its the hardest thing in the world to ponder in your heart and not with your mouth. There are things I just can't understand and really don't know if it possible to understand. I could probably just push it aside if I were that type of person and do it with ease, but I am not that type of person.

I will say this... The most painful ache a person can have is heartache.. it is indescribable!!!

I believe some of the pain in pondering is the root of true heartache.

I am aware that I have someone to cast my cares upon because He careth for me,  so I can only assume the heart hurts to make me aware that when everyone around me doesn't care or lies to me and let's me down, that there is one that will never leave me (my greatest fear in life is to be left) nor will HE forsake me. That is absolutely incomprehensible to me.

(KJV)Hebrews 13:5
Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.